I think the honeymoon with chemo is over. My shiny Friday was followed by a leaden Saturday, and I'm still not bouncing back this morning. My body feels weighted down, my legs too heavy, my back achy. I wonder whether it's bone pain from the Neulasta, or crashing from the last steroids on Thursday, but really it doesn't matter - I'm just drained. I'm starting to get a little nervous though, because I had come to think each round would have a predictable pattern of a few slow days, followed by lots of fairly normal days. It's scary not to be able to predict one's own limits.
My big goal today is to make it to the store for cat litter and food, and the biggest challenge will be picking up my son from his friend's house 20 minutes away. And yet I committed to doing the church newsletter this coming week, and tomorrow I have a long (tiring) appointment with the radiological oncologist for measuring and tattooing. I'm feeling overwhelmed. Chemo might be harder than I thought. One step at a time. Remember to ask for help. Rest.
Sunday, February 11, 2007
Whoosh! There Went My Energy
3 comments:
:( Always remember you can take a break from the blogging. Love you
Hey... screw the newsletter!
I want to say something cheerleader-y here, but on the other hand I want to make sure that you don't try to spend energy you don't have. So all I can do is say that with your: "One step at a time. Remember to ask for help. Rest." philosophy, you've probably got all the tools you need to make it through. I hope you feel better soon, and that being prepared for the unexpected doesn't take too much out of you.
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